This is my story/journey with generalized anxiety disorder.
I was medically diagnosed by my doctor as having generalized anxiety. Now some of you might be wondering what generalized anxiety really means. Generalized anxiety is excessive worry over daily life events and activities, of which there is no obvious reason for worry.
When I first started having the physical symptoms that go along with anxiety, I was in my late teens. At that time I didn't know about anxiety or that it was even a thing. I was always feeling nauseated so I thought I was having stomach issues. After a couple months of feeling the way I did, I made an appointment with the doctor. I was sent for a number of tests and exams on my stomach. Each test and exam came back fine. The doctor was telling me there is nothing wrong with me. To cope I started to self medicate myself.
Fast forward to my early 20's and things started getting worse and fast. I started to find it hard to go to work as I worked in the public. I couldn't or wouldn't even go away from home for the night because of fear of getting sick and not being able to get home. I basically didn't want to be away from home (my comfort zone). I never told my family or friends why I wouldn't do things. I just made excuses not to leave home. Then the day came where I couldn't even get out the door to go to work. That's when I knew I had a problem. Went back to the dr's and described how I was feeling. That's when I first learned about generalized anxiety disorder. My dr prescribed me an antidepressant.
Since my 20's until now, I have been on about 4 different antidepressants. I haven't really stayed on the same one for much over a year at a time. All either had Side effects I can't stand or don't like example, made me very depressed and suicide (something I never had before), made my hair fall out in clumps, weight gain of 80lbs, lack of energy and just down right horrible feeling. The current antidepressant I'm on at this time is sort of a happy medium for me. I'v lost weight on it (bonus), it makes me not able to sleep at night (on sleeping meds to help), I'm not depressed (bonus) and it helps with the anxiety about 75% of the time. It's not perfect but the benefits out weigh the side effects for me.
I did try doing therapy for a while, although I didn't stick with it. I found it wasn't something that worked for me.
The one thing I find is my biggest trigger is when I'm under stress. Stress seems to make my anxiety get out of hand even on the antidepressants. I try not to let things stress me out and tell myself I'm not able to control everything. Most days are good but there are still those days when the anxiety creeps up on me and gets the best of me.